late-night realization

(as if I have them at any other time)

In my social group, I used to have a really nice group of ladies I was pretty tight with. Hanging out whenever and randomness and lots of bonding and laughter. 

Maybe it’s because we’re all really busy or whatever now, but I never see them anymore. I haven’t really talked to them since before Halloween. It’s almost been six months. Not that it’s necessarily anyone’s fault - they have lives, and I’ve been reading and went to another bible study to bond with nice girls at my church before I left so I felt more involved in my church…

But now I’m a bit sad over that. I’ve missed out on a lot, surely. I did try to reach out to some of them but was shot down each time. I feel like trying to talk to them now would be kind of fake - are we already “old friends”? The friends you see and are glad to catch up with, but are also content with only seeing them once a year or so? And I don’t even know how much we would still have in common…

It’s also slightly aggravating that one of the reasons we don’t hang out is the ever-present BOYFRIEND issue. Obviously, happy and excited for people who are in a satisfying and healthy relationship. Kudos and congrats. BUT that doesn’t mean you drop off the face of the earth and are non-existent to people who you don’t make out with. Furthermore, we should have more to talk about then just boys and relationships. I know you think he’s the greatest thing since sliced bread, and I will sit there and really listen and encourage you and fangirl over things with you and be genuinely happy for you - but I don’t want to hear his name mentioned in every conversation revolve around him. He may be your world, but there are seven billion other people in the world who have no vested interest in him.

Ho hum. I feel like Eeyore. I’m going to do homework and then do some art to hopefully stop thinking about this.

#personal  #text  #friends  #old friends  #RUF  #i miss you but  #you probably don't miss me  #rant  #oh well  

1. constructionsofcontent said: :[ I hope I’m not included in this, I miss you. :[
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